ack, not having a computer makes things difficult

anywho, so my computer's still fucked...just my luck - but it doesn't really matter b/c i'm never in the dorm room but it would be nice to rape the LAN connection one last time before school's out oh, some news - i got busted for sharing...video game roms - who would've thought...i certainly didn't fuckin' shit is all i could think b/c roms usually aren't that big a deal, but i guess now they're throwing shit storms over anything 'copyrighted' ya know, if it were really the people making the shit losing out on money...especially since i've only got games for systems that're out of date...i wouldn't do it, but that's not the case, so pfft and i've been spending a lot of time with a wonderful wonderful girl ;) recap: thursday - melissa's apartment warming party...good deal, fun fun fun friday - saw kung fu hustle, hung out w/ melissa's after she got off work saturday - rocky horror picture show...and enjoyed it sunday - max and relax accomplishments - beat resident evil 4 for a second time

my revelation is probably the last chance for your redemption

i realize sometimes how things can become really tense between two people, and it's stupid to say the least. it's so easy to throw out words and fists and maybe things around you, but what's the point...really? two days from now, someone's just gonna be talking about you thinking you're a fucking psycho...and eventually you'll end up pissing someone off that doesn't need to be pissed off, hopefully they'll check your ass before you do something really stupid. i don't know what i'm really trying to say... maybe i'm just saying, that people should really grow up every now and then, and stop being such a baby about everything, and that goes for me as well, but i'm tired of hearing about people that're supposed to be adults (20+ cuz that's when you're really considered an adult in psychological terms) acting like fucking spoiled brats, and if you think i'm talking about you...some person(s)...you're fucking wrong. there's just all these stories that float about that i hear, and they're really stupid... maybe it's just i know things i shouldn't know... maybe people need to grow up and when someone's happy that they just couldn't make happy...they should let that person be happy if they really "care" about them so much, it doesn't make sense to me...but i can't say anything b/c i fucked with a person or two in my day for being selfish, but the important thing is i realize this now...and i feel so dumb for not noticing it sooner, ack, sometimes i really do get annoyed by myself maybe i'm just annoyed by ignorant people right now...who think i search for dirt...but maybe i'm just fucking bored, cuz that's the case most of the time, i'm just fascinated of the knit networking amongst people b/c you can go on here and find people on the same friend's lists, but they don't even know each other...it's just an interesting thing for me, and so i always do some searching on the internet, once again to reiterate, b/c i'm fucking bored...and you can find out exactly what these people are like (or what the put out) in all kinds of depth...but then some people get pissed off just b/c you fucking read something, and maybe you have an opinion...i don't care who has an opinion and cares to tell me, so i think the same of other people, but i guess other's can be uptight just b/c they don't like me... and maybe i'm just tired of uneducated people that'd rather kick you in the face than shake your hand and get to know you, i dunno...there's just things i guess i'll never understand cuz i'm genuinely a nice person...for the most part, but i can be a dick, just not so much to someone i don't know...i dunno maybe it's just me....is it?

loose lips sink ships, but how? i really wanna fuckin' know that

ya know i've come to realize that i don't exactly post on my blog nearly as much, so i guess i'm not nearly as annoying, ha ha. i guess it's just when you're happy you know that everyone knows it cuz it's just one of those things that glimmer off you like you had baby oil rubbed all over your body and your running around in the humid sun...you just shine, ha ha. and when you're down you want everyone to know, even though you don't want to admit to it, b/c you want people to sympathize and empathize and be all sorry for the poor little boy/girl. hoping someone might step up and help you make things better. i dunno, circumstances are just weird like that i guess. anyway, i really stink - and my room is fucking hot. so i think i'm gonna asphyxiate on my own stench if i don't shower. laters kiddos.

no one could tear my heart out quite like you, but bones did a good job of making it look good

so i got another tattoo, finally. and i went up to like no other in richmond, turns out the guy who put ink on me (bones) had a run in w/ the other guy that did my other tattoo (adam perry). let's just say they don't like each other...ha ha, so now i have a tattoo by each rival...but for all the records, bones seriously seems a lot cooler, not so much of a dick like adam...cuz he'd be all quiet, but bones - he was cool shit. anywho...i'll throw some pics up: image close w/ hairy chest image further back w/ better view of hairy chest THEN I DECIDED TO SHAVE AS NOT TO LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT close up sans the hairy chest further back sans the hairy chest and also i'll say other things, mel is now my g/f...woot that's pretty awesome. plus there have been other WOW events in my life lately that just make me feel lucky to be alive, and i've been chillin' w/ josh, james, hanna, raych (the old crew) plus i met erin and made melissa tag along, and everyone gets along, that's fuckin' awesome. right now, life is good - and that doesn't happen too much in the life of a jew that's named tristan...so you guys...smile.

happier than that silly rabbit when he actually got some fucking trix

turns out i didn't miss my NAT 101 test...woot, but i'm still not doing well in that class...maybe after they average the lab and lecture i'll be in the clear...now to worry about psychology. also...i like melissa, she is the bee's knees ;) laters kids. p.s. i want more sometree dammit, fuckin' germans and their hard to find shit in america...i kill someone in front of they own momma to get another cd or two...prolly all...

and this is me with my heart on my sleeve

the weekend has been great, drinking and sleeping and eating. you know how it goes. i'm quite smitten to say the least, ha ha. so instead of putting down a play by play of everything i'll just say...it was grood (good & great, great & good). argh, i'm kicking myself in the ass right now cuz i do believe that i missed a test in nat 101 which is the only class i'm failing surprisingly. and i've missed english 102 for the 7th time in a row. gd, i'm getting so fucking careless and lazy about school. but seriously this is gonna be the last time i fail any classes due to fucking lack of whatever...bah. and someone it still doesn't matter, and i'm still happy - ha ha. ya know, can't say i saw this coming about two weeks ago. it's really amazing how things can just change like a current so quickly. and it's nice and refreshing that i'm not the only person in the world that's comfortable with with being so open and up front about pretty much everything. the only thing is i wish she'd let me fucking pay for dinner and not worry about it, ha ha. ;) but other than that, she's really great, like blindsided me in a gruesome car wreck great...but that's not great unless you're a little off like me. le sigh. alright well...i think a shower would do me pretty good about now, wake me up a little more and what not, so yeah.

you fill in the blank, and i'll finish the rest

wrote something today and figured i'd put it up "Writing Poetry In Old Constellations" I can't help myeslf, I'm staring because I can see the sparkles in your eyes As complicated and beautiful as the constellations in a midnight sky I never knew I liked brown, until I met you You say you're just full of shit, I guess I like shit too And nothing you could say would scare me away I enjoy each passing day that you cast a shadow next to mine It might've rained for a few days but the puddles held smiles when I looked down And your face burned in my retinas from the most brilliant smile I've seen in ages You still take my breath away just thinking of laying beside you with your head on my chest It took so long to touch your face, but I must confess it was well worth the wait Let's make magnetic poetry, you choose the words, I'll do what I can How about we get a few drinks in us, and try again Somehow you make me sweeter than I am, but you taste sweeter than I'll ever be And as the hours fade away into this new day, I stare at the gum on the ceiling As we play our stupid little game, bodies together, fingers all tangled If you lean into me, I'll lean back If you're hungry, I'm buying If you like Dutch, that's fine But don't expect me to give up on chivalry

nobody messes with the best and lives to tell about it

well i have had one of the most enjoyable nights ever...i met new people which were really cool...and got to hang out with one great person that just made the night even better. and we talked mostly, and it was such a great night...from about midnight to close to five, then we fell asleep. and today we woke up at 11ish and i didn't come back here til about 3:15 or so...and man, i've never wanted to just lie in bed so much, ha ha, i'm such a loser.